Some explanation at first

Hi!
I have a plan, a dream, one of many. I recently went through some difficult work situations and it made me think about my own "must to do" list. I will explain it to you briefly. I wanted to leave my work- it was so stressful nearly unbearable to exist in there, because all of that my health was compromised. I wanted to leave but couldn't do so because of finances. I couldn't afford of being unemployed and having no work stability. I had to pay my bills and buy food. I have suffered for 3 more weeks and went for sick leave. It has been more then a month now and I still suffer from insomnia, stress and depression.
I started thinking why a person on a good salary as a nurse manager have no savings but debts and can barely survive until next payday. I never thought I live high life but the ordinary one, i was buying a lot of things but cheap ones. I have been trying to get out of debts for more then 6 months now and when I am nearly out I fall back again.
I can understand why? What I am doing wrong?
With this blog I wanna show you my struggle of paying the debts and saving money for my dream. I wanna show you my way of finding what I am doing wrong, fighting with my own temptations.
I hope you will enjoy it...who ever you are.